¡un elefante en una cacharrería!

what’s with people always assuming something is about them? it pisses me off..a lot. who even says you’re that relevant in someone’s life? and even if (and when) it’s about you, what makes you think you’re so special?

anyways. i hate how i know so much and so little about music. you think i’d be the fucking pop punk know-it-all because it’s all i talk about, but i feel like i know nothing.

i hate that caring so much about music makes me feel immature. i don’t want it to be something i grow out of. but when i hear the artists i look up to talking about how after their teenage years music didn’t mean as much, i can’t help but think it’s inevitable. i get so defensive about music because it’s something i can always turn to. something that’s still there when my nose stings, or when my nails mark my palms, or when my mouth hurts from smiling. so the idea of me not caring about it enough later in life is crazy to me.

i get so defensive about music because a lot of people don’t actually care. whether they only listen because they’re bored or to show off to someone they like. i hate posers

today was okay. there was good and bad, to balance each other out. do you know that feeling when too much good is happening and you *know* something bad is going to happen next? terrible

practice today was kinda sucky. for the first part, i was playing with my friends and the team captain. soo basically practice consists of stretching then playing 'catch' with the birdie. its not really catch but i have no idea what else to call it. see, the idea of catch USUALLY consists of passing something to another person..not spiking said thing towards the ground. so if this concept is familiar to someone who hasn't played a sport since they were six, you would think the fucking team captain would understand it? wrong. so stupid. i stopped playing with them to play with sincerelyloveme, not that it was much better... we both did a bad job today

after practice, i opened up my phone to see that i got a 21/21 on my gov quiz. it brought my D up to a C- which is crazy because getting my grade that high after starting the quarter with a 9% is nearly impossible. thats also one of my highest gov test grades which made me super happy. its also getting warm outside. it feels good until im walking home sweaty and swatting away bugs that are too excited to land on me.

but, i also found out one of my friends supposedly has a crush on me? which is weird because i literally talk to him about OTHER guys all the time. he knows i don't like him like that, so why would he like me? i guess we'll never know because im never going to ask. i wish i could read minds

i haven't felt good with words in a while, maybe i'll feel like writing something dramatic soon.

xoxo

a

i saw this prompt and it says "put your playlist on shuffle and write down every lyric you relate to till the page is full." there is no end to this page because it's digital..so im going to write to my heart's content.

below the cut are lyrics i relate to heh

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my birthday is coming up in a month, and my sister asked me what i want to do. i want to hang out with my friends like i do every time this day rolls around, but i have a problem. too many people and nowhere to go. never in my life would i have thought i would have too many people to hang out with. im not complaining, but i have no clue what we are going to do.

its a stupid thing to stress about, but this is a milestone. ill be able to drive, and get a real job, and..... thats it. but its still pretty important i guess. even if i dont do something big it will be okay, as long as i receive fob themed gifts heh

hello.

it's been forever since i posted. im not obsessed with boys (right now) if anyone was wondering. im trying out for the badminton team. it's been ages since i felt enough anger to make an entire post about it. im not going to say the words im thinking because i may jinx it, but you get the idea.

FUTCT demos got leaked and omg..'we dont take hits, we write them' was actually on there. its one of my favorite fob songs, but there has only been a grainy live version of it. i don't really tell anyone that because i don't want to seem like that kind of fan that ONLY likes deep cuts. i can't stand those people, people who act like they're too good for post hiatus. yes immortals is co-worker music, yes it's still a good song. i actually cried when i heard the demo for we don't take hits. not because it was "the greatest thing ever produced," but because i used to stay awake at night praying for a studio version, a demo, or at least a live version that is actually discernible (but even without the noise, when did patrick ever enunciate his words?)

anyways, im going to attempt to go back to bed. goodnight.

xoxo

a